LOST

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….I lost myself….

Lost sight of who

Who I was

Who I wanted to be

Who I should be

And only saw

Who I should not be

…

So I lost myself

Lost myself in a different world

Lost myself in a different life

A life where I didn't exist

A life where I hated who I was

A life that I should be living

But deep down i knew

That no matter what I tried to do

I knew, I knew that I was

I was lying to myself

Telling myself that I found myself

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It’s weird to say

Weird to say it took a dream to wake up

Jolted me out of life I once knew life

A life I once knew

Once had once

Once cherished

Finally

Once took advantage of

Took for granted

And lost that life

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Lost my mind

I lost the love of a mother

Lost the love, I loved the most

I lost it all

Lost my heart, my soul

I lost my mind knowing, I had lost it all

I was lost in my own mind

Trapped in my mind with a broken heart

Broken soul, and broken mind

I knew then I and there

I’d rather have a been broken, than breaking

So I choose to give in to the pressure

Choose to lose my life

That’s when it all came to an end

The end of my life.

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Dark so dark

So cold

So empty

Nothing but hate,

Pain

Sadness

And loneliness

Thought the end

The end was calm and peaceful

Thought the stories of heaven and hell

Were stories

In that brief moment

Time stopped

And I had spent

An eternity in my mind

I knew I had to

Begin a new

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To begin a new

I had

I had to find myself

But to find myself I had to

I had to begin new

Thought to find myself I had to

Had to recreate a life lost

No matter how many Similarities I knew

I knew I was lying to my self

I knew it was not my life

To begin a new life I had

Had to give up the dream that was of the old

…Never forgetting…

I lost myself

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